Thursday 19th June you was unwell. Your temp kept rising. Only a few months ago you had a fit from being so hot. So I called the out of hours dr to get an appointment. On the way to the appointment we called in at uncle Richards house. Nanny shouted to me to hurry and instantly I knew you was fitting again. I struggled to get you out of your car seat, you was turning blue and stopped breathing. As soon as I had you in my arms I shouted for someone to call an ambulance. I was patting your back to get you to bring any fluid you had chocked on out so you would breathe again. Panic of loosing my baby flying through me, I rushed you indoors where you puked on me so I stripped your pyjamas off and laid you on the cold floor. Then I saw you had started to bite your tounge. Instantly I put my fingers in your mouth to free your tounge. Finally you started breathing again but wasn't totally conscious. All this happened in just 3 minutes but to me, a mum it felt like 3 hours. The ambulance turnt up just as you was coming back round.
We went in the ambulance where they gave you an ice pack wrapped in a towel to cool your body down. We was then rushed to A&E. An hour we waited just to see a nurse, when the nurse checked you over your temp was 38.1. But they still sent us to wait in a boiling hot waiting room. Another hour had passed and you had finally fell asleep. BUT, as the dr called your name you started to have another fit. I screamed for the dr. He took you out my arms and laid you on a bed with oxygen. Another nurse inserted a drug to help relax your body to stop the fitting. It wasn't working. The dr asked for a porter but seconds later he said he couldn't wait for a porter he needed to get you into resuss now! As a mum you do anything to keep your kids safe. Seeing my little girl not coming round was heartbreaking. I wanted to cry but I knew I couldn't. I had to be strong for you. All I could do was talk to you and tell you I was there, that you was going to be ok. I felt helpless. My little girl laying in front of me looking lifeless. The dr scooped you up and ran round to resuss. I followed. They laid you down with oxygen and attached heart moniter to you. They we're trying to put IVs in your hands for bloods too.
A nurse came up to me and asked of I was ok. Now, maybe it's just me but I wanted to headbutt her and tell her how stupid she was! Ofc I wasn't ok! Look at my baby! You finally came back round. Crying your eyes out, scared with what was going on. I was there by your side to make you realise you was ok. Then they needed to do a chest X-ray. After many bloods and injections you ended up with 2 IVs. One in each hand. You had IV antibiotic going through one. Eventually I was allowed to pick you up and cuddle you. I felt complete again to have you in my arms. You was so tired from the whole ordeal that all you did was sleep. We was eventually taken up to the children's ward. You lay in your cot fast asleep attached to the drip and your heart rate moniter. All I could do all night was sit and watch you, I was scared it'll happen again. Still I couldn't cry I had to be strong.
We went in the ambulance where they gave you an ice pack wrapped in a towel to cool your body down. We was then rushed to A&E. An hour we waited just to see a nurse, when the nurse checked you over your temp was 38.1. But they still sent us to wait in a boiling hot waiting room. Another hour had passed and you had finally fell asleep. BUT, as the dr called your name you started to have another fit. I screamed for the dr. He took you out my arms and laid you on a bed with oxygen. Another nurse inserted a drug to help relax your body to stop the fitting. It wasn't working. The dr asked for a porter but seconds later he said he couldn't wait for a porter he needed to get you into resuss now! As a mum you do anything to keep your kids safe. Seeing my little girl not coming round was heartbreaking. I wanted to cry but I knew I couldn't. I had to be strong for you. All I could do was talk to you and tell you I was there, that you was going to be ok. I felt helpless. My little girl laying in front of me looking lifeless. The dr scooped you up and ran round to resuss. I followed. They laid you down with oxygen and attached heart moniter to you. They we're trying to put IVs in your hands for bloods too.
A nurse came up to me and asked of I was ok. Now, maybe it's just me but I wanted to headbutt her and tell her how stupid she was! Ofc I wasn't ok! Look at my baby! You finally came back round. Crying your eyes out, scared with what was going on. I was there by your side to make you realise you was ok. Then they needed to do a chest X-ray. After many bloods and injections you ended up with 2 IVs. One in each hand. You had IV antibiotic going through one. Eventually I was allowed to pick you up and cuddle you. I felt complete again to have you in my arms. You was so tired from the whole ordeal that all you did was sleep. We was eventually taken up to the children's ward. You lay in your cot fast asleep attached to the drip and your heart rate moniter. All I could do all night was sit and watch you, I was scared it'll happen again. Still I couldn't cry I had to be strong.
Seeing your child like this isn't fair. No parent should go through this.
Early fri morning you woke up crying looking at your hands. I reassured you it was ok and that mummy and uncle Richard had these too to make them better. You soon calmed down. All you wanted was cuddles with mummy. I asked the nurse if I could take you out the cot. She said I could. Instantly you calmed down. After an hour of you playing with mummy you fell asleep, as I was in a chair I couldn't fall asleep incase we fell off. So I laid you in my bed with me where you slept soundly in my arms. Myself, I still only managed a few minutes as I was too scared to sleep! Fri morning breakfast time came and you wanted food so you had cereal and a bottle of milk. You ate well. But within hours your temp was rising again and all you wanted to do was sleep. I couldn't eat, I couldn't go to the toilet, nothing as you would scream without me. As your mum it was my duty to let you come first. Eventually at 2.00 in the afternoon I got a sandwich!
All evening you was the same, sleepy and upset. Even worse when they came to do your IV medicine. You cried your eyes out as it hurt. Gradually you started flinching and rolling your eyes then your tounge would go limp. Then for 3 seconds you had like a mini fit. I shouted I needed a dr. Eventually he came and said it's your body's reaction to try cool you down. That night I kept you in my bed again! Little sleep for me with worry. But your sats and temp we're getting better.
Sunday morning came and you didn't want breakfast just milk. Didn't want lunch. But happily ran around the play area they have! Your temp was much better. You got sleepy again as it rised, but they woke you up to take more bloods! You cried mum mum the whole time they stabbed you with needles. 4 times! With 1 in your tiny foot! Ouch.
Hours later we was discharged with augmentin to give you orally 3x a day.
Although Sunday eve came and you was smothered in spots so back up A&E we went. Finally we got seen and the dr said it was nothing to worry about. Hmm. So we got home and smothered you in sudocream.
Finally on Weds 25th you were back to normal with just a few spots left.
Looks like measles. Still on your medication.
Now after going through all this the dr told me every time you are unwell you will fit, up to the age of 5! Now you was only 16months! So I have a long few years till I can sleep easy!
The whole time I prayed for your dad to be here by my side but daddy was away working. I shouldn't say this but I will always have a tiny piece of hate for your daddy for not being by our side when we needed him most.
It hurt me so much to not have him there to tell me everything was going to be ok.
But for now I'm just happy your still here.
Love Mum ❤️
